The Start

Ive been lost a long time, it feels like an eternity,
payment of cost; my only balm? Soothing must be earned it seems
 
i have fought for the lost
i have fought for the cost but to show for it? naught.

So i fought for the Grind  What to show for it? Mine.
But i lost what? what?
what i thought would define what the cost would have brought what i thought was benign But i found it malign and now i define what i thought what was mind? what i shot to define what i now would decline what i sought of my mind only now just to find.
.
Ive I've I've fought for the lost
i have fought for the cost but to show for it?
naught

Surrounded by anger, Concerned With revenge Stronger than Stonehenge iv written my Que but lately it seems iv no object yet no concept of when i should take my dues, only left objectivist concepts of what is new Fragile in my waking And concerned with misconstrued i tarry forth and travel on My lesson Worth their Dues.