Am I ok ///updated version

Am I ok

I smile on the outside
Yet I feel as if I am
dejected from society
Am I ok?

I may be laughing
 on the outside but
Im crying on the inside
Am I ok?

I make it seem
as if I'm happy
Like a boat flowing down
The river peacefully
But I'm not
But no matter how hard I try
The water overflows and suddenly I'm overboard
yelling for help but it is as if im yelling into a
Dark hole of empitiness
Am I ok?

As I looked in the mirror
Holding back my sorrows
And preventing them from taking over…
I’m not ok

Struggling to find the appreciation I once had
But it's not as easy as I thought it would be
I smiled and started to bring back the love I once had for myself
I am finding the love I once had for myself

I think I'm going to be ok…..