Analysis of Being alone

I feel like I was never alone, I’m scared.
I feel like I’ve never knew myself, my desires.
even if I’m miles away from loliness I feel incredibly sad.

Since i know i won’t be paired.
everyone i loved is better without me, liars.
when they leave, i have another, no, I don’t feel bad.

the thing i can relate to.

Disgust
Shamed
Not good enough
Without future

life sense like instant flu

Now i can’t get out of that circle
Pain is sempiternal
Crawling like turtle
I know, my head is abnormal