Analysis of The Unknown

Memories flowing from all different directions,
Scare of the future with no purpose,
Friends disappearing even during the elections,
Idk what to do I became more nervous,
With my mind bursting with thoughts.

You know fear comes with a price,
I know someday I'll get caught,
With the drugs thats shape like rice,
I look to myself not knowing about life,
Maybe one day I'll just die.

Or maybe Death will just roll the dice,
I don't know man im just so shy,
But what can I really do,
All I can do is live the now,
Really all I want is to be true.

But the real question is how,
Because my mind is hurting with this pain,
So really what can I gain?