Analysis of I’ll love you in secret
Jed Fraser 1962 (Barnsley)
You’re going where?
You’re joking right?
Fuck outta here
What are you? queer?
Let me ask you this.
Why the starving children?
Why the wars and the tears?
Why the rapists and molesters?
Seriously,
You’re taking the piss
And you of all people,
you’ve gotta be kidding
I know you mate,
you do Satan’s bidding
You drink like fish
and fuck like a rabbit
And and there isn’t a drug
you’ve not taken to habit.
You live in this doss house
with the rest of your mates
We’re hustlers and bustlers
and junkies and jakes
He’s fucked us all over
so we do what it takes.
That needle’s inviting
and so is the coke
Fuck it,
Imma speedball tonight
and pray I don’t croak
What was I thinking,
I’m sorry I spoke
The heaven I need
coke and smack can invoke
The party soars like a rocket
I’m dying choking on vomit
These beats feel demonic
I need off of this comet
But the starving children!
The wars and the hate!
Why have you done this?
Did you just close the gate?
My body is wretching,
can’t hold back the tears.
Sweating and heaving,
Surrounded by fears.
My begging and screaming
are piercing my ears.
You said that you loved us
and died for our sins.
So why release
all these demons
to crawl through our skins.
What happened to us?
When did we part?
Don’t you remember
My whispers
in bed after dark?
I promised to love you
I thought you loved me.
You witnessed the beatings
With tears in your eyes
And cried
When Billy Mason stole my innocence and pride.
But now it’s the morning
The sun’s shining through
This doss house looks squalid
But at least I’ve got you
Please help me my friend
To be better than me
The love that I have
I know you can see
I implore you oh Lord
To help set me free
I’ll love you in secret.
That’s the best way for me.
Now four decades later
I sit by your side.
I still secretly love you.
It’s how I survive
Jed Fraser, October 2022
Scheme | XAXX BCDEFB XGHGXIXI XXBJKJ GLXAL GLXL IIXI CHBH GDGMGM NOXXO NXKEXPFXXQQ GPXP XFXFXFIF KQPX K |
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Poetic Form | Etheree (29%) Tetractys (28%) |
Metre | 1101 1101 1101 1111 11111 101010 101001 10100010 1000 11001 011110 110110 1111 11110 1111 011010 001101 1110110 110111 101111 010001 01001 111110 111111 110010 01101 11 1101 01111 11110 11011 01011 101101 01011010 11010110 111010 1111110 101010 01001 11111 111101 11011 11101 10010 01011 110010 11011 111111 011101 1101 1110 111101 11011 1111 11010 110 01101 110111 11111 110010 11011 01 110101110001 111010 01101 111110 111111 11111 111011 01111 11111 101111 11111 111010 101111 110110 11111 1110011 11101 110010 |
Closest metre | Iambic trimeter |
Characters | 1,961 |
Words | 428 |
Sentences | 30 |
Stanzas | 15 |
Stanza Lengths | 4, 6, 8, 6, 5, 4, 4, 4, 6, 5, 11, 4, 8, 4, 1 |
Lines Amount | 80 |
Letters per line (avg) | 18 |
Words per line (avg) | 4 |
Letters per stanza (avg) | 95 |
Words per stanza (avg) | 24 |
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Not your traditional Christian
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