Analysis of Spiritual Sides

Gift of decrement is my gift,
Meaning The other side is at my tips.
Look through my eyes,souls on the other side,
Living through death from a suicide.
I've Drowned,overdosed,why am I ALIVE!!
seen death,God,Ghost,Angels,
what's wrong with"My Eyes"!
scared to sin,shadows attend letting evil come in,
I've fallen and seen the evil in men.
Saw future,I fainted,
was facedown I looked up to fiery sky
ashes mixed into dust,dead Bodies,
no buildings...Why am I alive!
A boot stomps in front of me,Gun to my face,
Black military suit,armored at waist,gas mask,and oxygen tank.
Closing my eyes,Ima die today.
I Blinked,then feel people's touch,
Friends helping me up,story I told,
they thinks made up.
Who else can I relate to,
Elijah wasn't a believer till he came through.
He created a spiritual doorway,
inviting anything to communicate.
Im leavin because im christian,
I started seeing ghosts as I moved to the kitchen,
The room got crowded I felt pain and resistance.
A lil boy in corner crying caught my attention,
Looked four years old,he was saddest of the loneliness.
I reached out an said please don't cry,
He gripped my hand,pulled me inside,
ripped off his skin screaming with six eyes and three tongues a Skelton draining my life,
I scream to the heavens..
Awoke in shock to go outside an See no space
All the stars,all the planets,everything made god's face.
All of this,to hear an see a gift,
Am i still sane,is or my mind playing tricks.
This was my view let me see back my eyes,
Did you ever figure out while I'm still ALIVE!!!