Analysis of An Unseen Enemy Within
Never in a million years,
would I have thought,
that I would have been smitten.
Reduced from a man,
that once, had the will-power and strength
of Goliath,
to that, as weak as a kitten.
Vulnerable to emotional pain.
Life is not what it used to be
and sometimes is too much,
by irregularities and strain.
Brought about by a very bad
experience,
involving death and loss,
I now suffer from day to
day.
A debilitating illness,
that, has its own way.
Each and every day,
I am fighting this.
Exhausted from mental
torture,
a battle in my head and
even though I try to sleep
and shut it out,
the battle continues in bed.
My personality has changed
and through that,
I have lost a great deal,
part of my life, to include
a wife.
I am aware, although a blur,
that I have attempted to take
my own life by various means
and on the one occasion,
I succeeded to die,
I was resuscitated,
waking up in hospital,
with IV lines and heart machine,
attached.
The medics were not allowing me
To go from this world of mine or
to pass away,
despite being successful,
in my try.
Suicidal ideation, co-morbid thoughts,
depression, dysthymia, borderline
personality disorder,
to list but a few,
is what I am labelled with,
stuck with for life and all
because of an incident,
that was so horrendous,
in causing my pain and strife.
Of course, I am not alone with
this syndrome.
There are countless others,
suffering in the same way,
for which I feel for and they are
not far from my home.
No amount of drugs, psychology
or psycho-education,
can ever rid this or erase the memories
from the brain.
What support and help there is,
can only dampen down the emotions,
a balancing act to keeping sane.
The flashbacks keep coming.
The tears keep rolling down
my cheeks,
sometimes for days,
sometimes for weeks.
The diagnosis, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
(PTSD).
I am in the firm grip of this and not to under-
estimate.
The power it has within the brain of oneself,
Is complex and a complicated
State.
The prognosis, is anyone's guess.
There are those that do not understand
or do not know,
the magnitude of suffering.
Only those that suffer this illness, know
that they are dealing with an unseen enemy
within !!
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Metre | 1000101 1111 1111110 01101 111011001 1010 11111010 1000101001 11111111 001111 100010001 10110101 0100 010101 1110111 1 0010010 11111 101001 11101 010110 10 0100110 1011111 0111 01001001 1010011 011 111011 1111101 01 1101101 11101011 11111001 0101010 101011 110100 101010 1110101 01 010010101 11111111 1101 0110010 011 0100101101 010110 0100010 11101 1111101 111101 0111100 11110 0101101 11111011 11 111010 1000011 11111011 11111 101110100 110010 110111010100 101 1010111 1101010010 010011101 01110 011101 11 0111 0111 001010101010 1 1100111101110 100 01011010111 11000100 1 00101101 11111101 1111 0101100 1011101101 111101101100 01 |
Closest metre | Iambic trimeter |
Characters | 2,098 |
Words | 395 |
Sentences | 24 |
Stanzas | 11 |
Stanza Lengths | 7, 4, 7, 8, 19, 9, 6, 7, 5, 7, 7 |
Lines Amount | 86 |
Letters per line (avg) | 20 |
Words per line (avg) | 5 |
Letters per stanza (avg) | 155 |
Words per stanza (avg) | 36 |
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