Analysis of Just waiting

I am trying
To spread myself
Into the depth of time
Since my journey
I am trying
To listen the foot steps
Of Divine
Since my awakening
But surprisingly
My body is moving with
Deserted thoughts
To work out the mathematics
Of life I have
Papers in my hands are blank
Gathering courage
To write something worth
Full of voids in its ink
Peculiar graphs I am following
Dry hours are resisting me
From talking to sky
Making friendship with birds
But I am not worrying
Not submitting myself
I know struggle makes
The life beautiful
Just waiting
For the lovely permission
Of God to get His flute call
The melodies of life

===========================  16.10.13 Wednesday