My addiction
Molly jo Heath 1984 (Waco, tx)
My Addiction...
To me, my addiction is emense pain, and absolute desperation,
It's tearing apart my family without hesitation,
It's feeling complete emptiness, consumed by fears,
It's singing my kids to sleep, not sure they'll wake, while drowning in my own tears,
It's taking my clothes off to pay bills, that never got paid,
It's the underlining cause of every bad decision I've ever made,
It's lie after lie, till my entire family no longer believes the truth, when it's true,
It's constantly saying "I'm sorry", for every shitty thing I do,
It's turning my back on my children until there taken away,
It's broken promises of change, day after day after day,
It's starving myself for days so my babies can eat,
It's standing at the gates of HELL with no shoes on my feet,
It's stealing pain pills from my mother. The very moment she took her last breath,
It's slitting my wrists just to feel, and welcoming death,
It's praying to my mother's spirit, and all I can hear is her cry,
It's four little voices asking me "Mommy Why",
It's a feeling of terror that for me there's no redemption,
Its seeing myself in the mirror and knowing this is the affliction of my own addiction,
So. For anyone wondering what it's like to be addicted,
It's sitting in a cell for months or years once the judge tell me in convicted,
Don't ever tell yourself, you'll never be that statistic,
Just remember my story, because if you think your different your being unrealistic!
About this poem
When I first bonded out of jail in January 2022 I put myself in treatment and started the process yet again of getting sober and correcting my life. My counselor had read me a poem about addiction and told me to go and write my own. This is what I came up with, it's taken me along time to share it because it is extremely personal. But if it helps the next struggling addict I'm all for it..
Written on February 20, 2023
Submitted by mollyheath84 on February 20, 2023
Modified on March 14, 2023
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Scheme | AABCDDEEFFGGHHIIAAJJKK |
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Closest metre | Iambic octameter |
Characters | 1,461 |
Words | 281 |
Stanzas | 1 |
Stanza Lengths | 22 |
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