My Truth

There are so many things that I want to say
I just want to break away

But there is air in my lungs
And it is no fun

I feel like I can’t breathe
And you can’t see

Your eyes are open but closed at the same time
You pretend like I am fine

You hear me choke
But you think it is a joke

You laugh in my face
And tell me to be ok

So I with tears in my eyes
I don’t dare to cry

This is how my life always has been
There is no chance for me to win

I know it is not right
But there is no help in sight

I feel the pain from within
I feel it crawling in my skin

There is so much pain
I feel like I a going insane

You hear but don’t listen
Then you put me in a shitty position

You miss all of the words that come out of my mouth
I am so sick of this house

Then this rage starts to sprout
And it is dying to come out

I want to scream and shout
Tell you all of my doubts

I want you to listen to me mom
I know this sounds like a bomb

I am sorry for the way this sounds
And I don’t want to go rounds

This needed to happen
And I am sorry for your reaction

This is my truth
But I can’t live my youth

I can’t live with feelings
That are as high as the ceiling

Please forgive me mom
And try to stay calm

As I tell you my truth