This Is My Hell

Walking through a hell I designed myself
I picked out the carpet and everything else
You don't like it, and neither do I
But nothing's going to change until we say goodbye

Look around, look what I created here
No one's smiling, nothing coming in clear
It's not what I want, or what I need
Everything gets swallowed up inside my greed

I'm sorry if I did something I'm supposed to regret
You did this to me and still I feel nothing yet
Just another place inside, just another hole inside of me
I don't belong here, do I? But I'm going to die here

This is my hell, I'm sure I've brought you around
It has all the pretty colors that you hate by now
A memory that you can't throw away
It lives with you forever, even to this day

Sure I remember the first time, chances looked slim
But she winked at me and I gave in
So f*ck*ng what if I enjoy my misery
It tasted so good I couldn't stop at two or three

I'm sorry if I did something I'm supposed to regret
You did this to me and still I feel nothing yet
Just another place inside, just another hole inside of me
I don't belong here, do I? But I'm going to die here

Sorry if I did something I'm supposed to regret
You did this to me and still I feel nothing yet
Just another place inside, just another hole inside of me
I don't belong here, do I? But I'm going to die here
I'm going to die here

(Written on July 20, 2011)

© Ricky Randall
October 5, 2012