Analysis of I Cannot Make This Decision

If sorrow and sadness is the truth.
It's ok.
At least I know.
The pain and suffering is far greater, but it's ok.
At least I know.

For in this life we search for two things, truth and love.
That we know.

Kiss me, if only to ease my suffering,
Hold me or let me go,
So at least I know.

Indecision to call you, eating me up inside,
Speak the sweet agony that is your decision,
Greet my face with tears and let me go,
For I cannot make this decision,
That I know.

And if your decision is final,
These are the last words i write for you,
The saddest lines written under drunken stars,
Inebriated light forcing glimpses of eternity,
That I know.

And if you chose me, I will love you,
That is certain,
But maybe you should leave?
So my heart can heal for another,
This is too painful, this I know.

So here I beg you, please let me go.
For I cannot make this decision.
This I know.